JULIETTE COMMAGERE

LYRICS

ALBUM: THE PROCESSION

EATS FROM THE INSIDE
There is a weight in me,
a cinder block that is slowly sinking
I lift, pull and strain
to get around
and when I’m all alone
I draw the shades
kick the clock to the floor
and dream myself away

from the top
from my window
it eats from the inside
i’ve built it up to let it go
it’s hard to forget what I know
eat’s away at my insides

my hands
feel like knots and stones
My tounge’s tied sweetly in a bow
It’s hot in here today
but in little while
maybe i’ll peel back the sheets
grab my bag
put together a few things
and like a memory
drift away

from the top
from my window
it eats from the inside
i’ve built it up
to let it go
it’s hard to forget what i know
eats away at my insides

IMPACT
You said you want to marry me
it’s dark in here I cannot find the light
you said why don’t we go outside
we can wander ’round we can stay up all night
I know i have to come along
If I want to find it
If I want to make it real
I know I have to put it down
Like to crawl, make it hard
make it mmmm

Oh I might like that
Everything has lost it’s impact
Oh I might like that
Everything is lost
it gets away from me

Time blows us along the road
Used to love the sky
Wide and hanging low
And we have grown
When it was clear
We’d watch the city lights
As they disappear
I know it’s all temporary
My love shakes like a leaf then steadies
I know i can get really low
Like a shell like a drum
Don’t know where to go

YOU
I take a seat in your chair
in your room but you’re not there
your earrings lying in a pair
your pretty notes
and words of grace
little books starting to fade
each perfectly out of place

all your things new or used
all your things there are few
i’ll carry them for you

between these walls you once adored
where strands of hair fell before
making figure eights across the floor
lie feathers and bits of lace
pillows with the edges frayed
silver rings carefully displayed

all your things new or used
all your things there are few
i’ll carry them for you

HOW I LOOK FOR YOU
Listen
the hour initially arises
you hear the moans
oh that’s my reality
my haunting
rocks, salt, earth and ash
en la madrugada
it gets harder to ignore them
to erase the past

how i look for you
how i hold my head up
it’s of no use
la llorona

the more i go
the more they send me
with a roar they make an offer
for simple things
take the roof and throw it off
until it hollows out
when i can close my eyes
they’re crying

FOREIGNER
Night will be coming on
my fingers can feel my heart
got to get inside

before it gets dark
before the crowds are gone
i wrap myself tight
i can hear my footsteps
and the street lamps
try to light up
they flicker on and off
in this twilight hour
in this lonely air

by myself today
in this neon landscape
i don’t have the words
i am a foreigner

time
knows how to get away
can’t tell how long i’ve been gone
i’m all adrenalin
and my thoughts are running wild
like a serenade
the sirens howl all night
they are ancient cries

by myself today
in this neon landscape
i don’t have the words
i am a foreigner

THE PROCESSION
When
he comes for you
don’t play the fool
back
back on the rise
gone
released from the tide
I don’t wanna wait for another
one foot in front of the other
wind in out eyes we have grown some
as we make our way
in the procession

rush
these legs around me
you can
they’re walking
it moves like you
you can
over the hills they are running
get used to it
don’t
how he follows in horrifying clothes
push you heart away
i now fear to warn all

I don’t wanna wait for another
one foot in front of the other
wind in out eyes we have grown some
as we make our way
in the procession

born
into the storm
return
to wander and roam
strong
the moon as our guide
bowed
slouching against the sky

I don’t wanna wait for another
one foot in front of the other
wind in out eyes we have grown some
as we make our way
in the procession

HOVERING IN THE WINGS
I fell inside the machine
it’s down, down where you wanna go
I made an offering of sticks and reeds
It’s down, down where the water flows
Watched it escaping me like my history

From the corner of my bedroom
I can hear it breathe
hovering in the wings
Every time that I turn around
red, gold, let them come out
the light is changing
and all my fears are taking form
move right in make yourselves at home
it’s comforting to be alone
laughing while the light is changing

I let it hunt for me
harvesting my dreams
It’s down down where you wanna go
tangled in a jumble of my needs
it’s down down where the water flows
lying awake
i try to breathe

From the corner of my bedroom
I can hear it breathe
hovering in the wings
Every time that I turn around
red, gold, let them come out
the light is changing
and all my fears are taking form
move right in make yourselves at home
it’s comforting to be alone
laughing while the light is changing

turn around
turn around

PLANTSONG
yesterday
lying there by the back road
in a box
a little seedling tried to grow
drying out in the cold but holding on
i took her home where it’s safe from the winter sun

but in the springtime
blossoms all around
i’ll take what was once mine
and put her in the ground

how it would feel
to spread your roots out
to grab the earth
to be in the ground

and when it rains
in the soil she’ll unfold
branches high
poised and regal in the sky
birds will come
build a home for their little ones
when i’m old
in her shade i’ll rest my bones

in the springtime
blossoms all around
i’ll take this little life
and put it in the ground

how it would feel
to spread your roots out
to grab the earth
to be in the ground

GLASS
once we were little girls
lying in the dark
i used to cry
you used to tell me to stop

back then
we dreamt of growing up
it seemed so far away
it seemed to impossible to us

now here we are
you’ve got your family
and your working hard
on our hillside
we could see everything

how a child grows fast
on this road
paved with glass

my love
we were very young
when we fell hard
misunderstood to everyone
the walls came down
though we tried
sometimes my heart
still feels broken inside

now you say
you wanna settle down
and build a home
i guess things have changed
i guess we have grown

how my tears roll past
it’s slick and cold
on this road
paved with glass

ANIMAL
wild-eyed thrashing
not yet broken
aint it wonderful
to be like an animal

wake up early with the sun
get a kiss from everyone
there’s a fire in your back
kicking’ hard goin’ mad

you won’t remember how it goes
you won’t remember the way your eyes closed
you won’ remember how your eyes rolled

wild-eyed thrashing
not yet broken
aint it wonderful
to be like an animal

flowers scattered all around
pushin hard and baring down
we were there you were not alone
all the smiles are in you hands
tiny hand and tiny bones
what you were is in the past
looking up she’s a sight to hold
the sky is clear the hills are bright
how it feels now you know
together you enter the night
now you know
now you know

wild-eyed thrashing
not yet broken
aint it wonderful
to be like an animal

aint it wonderful
just like an animal

Album: QUEENS DIE PROUDLY

HEARTS
I am from the city
I like my cars fast and pretty
Things have happened here that will never disappear
‘cause in my mind they’re alive
and giddy

I swim in the ocean
I like the salt
I sway with the motion
There are rocks and cliffs down here
That will one day disappear
They call me out to join them

And now they won’t stop
They won’t stop
I gave a good shout.

Heart’s the way to win me
I told you, heart’s the way to win me

I live in the land of plenty
I get what I want in the 21st century
What comes remains unclear
But still I persevere
And so I’ll take until they forget me

OVERCOME
Through gales and tributaries
Wild mountains, distant prairies
What kept me burdened now I cast it off
I’ll see it buried
These back-roads know no glory
With humble arms they hold me
From someplace else I see the moon and now I can see
clearly
I am overcome

Our distance grows and widens
But my heart’s a flood that rises
Spills out my restless eyes
I feel you most when we’re divided
Lay down a song for me and
Know that I’m not lonely ‘cause
We’re gonna ramble round and break the back of this
whole country
I am overcome

YOUR GHOST
Our hearts seal all our fates
I hear words that sound like you
They stay with me they’re not true

Make them make up with you
And yes he is my only thought
He now lives here mostly
I asked am I alone
I may see myself mostly
I feel each of you

Our hearts seal all our fates
I heard words that sound like you
They stay with me they’re not true
Our hearts seal all our fates
Still I wish it was a dream
It’s in our eyes we grieve

At first I hear him move
And then I really lose my cool
We had given up
Yeah you miss the ocean
And the sunshine
I follow your ghost

Our hearts seal all our fates
I heard words that sound like you
They stay with me they’re not true
Our hearts seal all our fates
Still I wish it was a dream
It’s in our eyes we grieve

Stay and meet his attack
The isles in me are who is sad
I need no more blood
They exist for now
They are loose spirits
I fear mourning

WHERE I GO
Every night I walk down
From a place that I found
There’s a spot by a tree
If I get close I can hear him breathe

I know the nights are getting cold

No ones here if I should cry
No conversation to pass the time
Cause every night I’m in a state
I need to try things my own way

This is where
Where I go
This is where
Where I go
To be alone

The leaves are getting close to try
Feather dusters streak the sky
If I fall or lose my way
No one will find me for days

I know you and I are cold

The chaparral is sweet and mild
It takes me back to when I was a child
Sometimes I stop and look around
Sometimes I walk till my feet are worn down

EVERYTHING I LOVE
Stuck here with her arms up
She fears she’s lost herself
A couple steps to walk out
Is the worst thing that she’s thought
Hanging with her arms up
Up here she crawls around
No place left to fall down
The heartache hasn’t stopped

She’s leaving in the morning
How it feels when you are never seen
How it feels to give up your dream

And the moment comes
To unlock what’s been reversed
She hates him so much she had to let him go
Heaven she said what have I done
Everything I love I let go

Stuck here making words up
She fears she’s found herself
No one left to help out
Tired of being in line

QUEENS DIE PROUDLY
I first used to be in love
Then after a while the more I feared who was standing near
us
The end now hits me the more I bleed for each who breaks
out
In the morning with sun on to terrorize me
In the morning with famine on my lips

My eyes cannot see through that
What if we lose them now
My kind will never know
How fearful my visions
They find me in the moonlight
To tell you out loud
I fear they’re going to cross, cross over

Queens die proudly

Your arrows and your pistols
Where my heart meets my skin
They’ve gone out to the woods they’re gone
Now I’m old enough
We’re only five miles out now
Mouths walk the walk
I miss you my dear friend
And that’s not an answer

The air will blow my way
I’m asking it
I’m sighing all alone
I’m deep with it
The air’s for me I know
I stay on
Yes cause they hound me
The night’s over

Queens die proudly

THE BIG MIDDLE
I’ve been standing on this mountain
I’ve been standing all alone
I never thought that I would get here
It just takes walking out the door

I went driving down these dark roads
And I got lost looking for the shore
When I got this scary feeling
That I’ve been here before

I used to want everything
I thought I could have that and more
Well I’m not old but I can’t help it
I don’t expect much anymore

There’s a cold wind blowing from the north
That emptiness has come back for more
And now I am quite certain
That I’ve been here before

THE NATURE OF THINGS
There was a time
When you were all I had
And every night
I cried I loved you like mad
But love it changes
Like the moon
Like winter bears spring
That’s just the nature of things

I tried to fight it
This fire growing dim
And I watched you hide it
What a mess we’ve been in
The waves don’t look back
The winds blow through the leaves
I’ll take their lead
Cause that’s the nature of things

So I’ll walk away
I’ll be the one they say is bad
cause we both know we’re afraid
to leave love in the past
Oh it should kill me
it should pull on my heart strings
but i’m doing fine
cause thats the nature of things

SKYSCRAPER
We’re in, we’re in
skyscraper

I dreamt we walked for miles
through brush and branches wild
when i saw a ladder reaching high
i climbed but you kept on against the tide

The sky kept pulling higher
the current pulled you out
and from the top i looked around
from a thousand feet above the ground

they came from somewhere else
these creatures moving in
you could not see what i had found
i screamed but i could not produce a sound

we’re in, we’re in
skyscraper

BERCEUSE
I hide them well, these dark dark spells

ALL YOUR DAYS
I close my eyes
I fall back down through the scenery
and i shudder twice like a hollow three
And at my side
and the city fades like a candle bright
in my mirrors gaze in the dusty light
I collect lies
and the wind it blows
it is hot and dry in my ears and nose
But still I try
in the desert night
i keep looking back, i keep looking back

All your days
are movin on
all your days they go there gone
all your days are movin on
all your days they go they’re gone
i haven’t lost you yet
all that i’ve tried to give and tried to gain
will not remain

Theives conspire
you were there from the start i know
but the time is right
building fires
We will watch it fly
whats wedged in my side
like a silky kite
won’t take up slack
I can’t hide
we will let it go
we climb up high watch the beach below
i remember when
i remember nights
and so i drive
there was something there
i could not describe

WITHOUT ME
I, need to get away
I hold you back I bring you down
theres only tears when i’m around
I, need to run away
I don’t know where I’ll go or how
but a different person i’ll become
I’m gonna leave today
It’ll hurt at first but then you’ll see
that things go better without me

cause it’s all my fault
and it’s time to carry
my own heart

I need to get away
theres a million miles of road
someplace else i’ll take my load
i’d like to run away
and after all my money’s burned
a different person will return
what if i leave you now
when you look back in time you’ll know
that i was sting to let you go

cause it’s all my fault
and it’s time to carry my own heart

i need to get away
i fought it heard but sadness won
far away i might belong
i’d like to run away
maybe if i’m on my own
i’ll find i’m strong if i’m alone
i swear i’ll leave today
i won’t look back and i won’t cry
all my pain i’ll leave behind

RETURNING
In this hour I designed
Eerie calm holding up the sky
Then like a gun and with a spark
It goes off–lighting in the dark
A part of me I thought I’d lost
Is returning

I’m all alone, pushing the night
All my defenses in my fist at my side
Then through the trees, throughout decades
I call out one last futile display
Can you hear me, don’t be afraid
Of returning

How we move through the night
How we cling to each other
Lost and terrified
When we open our hearts
it tastes like we’re drinking holy water
How she feels in my arms
Like a jewel I discovered
In the starry sky
Forever in love I’m holding her
Like she was my daughter

BIG STAR
Halfway through the night
I woke with a shock dear
I couldn’t help it
In my hands a thousand light years
That’s how I tell it
Moving through me
The single line

We’re riding a Big Star
We will find you
We’re riding a Big Star
Flying hard in the dark
We won’t come down

Up here I’m a sound
Howling in the night wind
An ancient story
Sent here to remind him
Of all his glory
In the wild spring
Of my mind

We’re riding a Big Star
We will find you
We’re riding a Big Star
Flying hard in the dark
We won’t come down

You make your way to me
You often come
with flags that herald our evolution
And all the sympathies
That I have won
Will all fall down when I am finally done

We’re riding a Big Star
We will find you
We’re riding a Big Star
Flying hard in the dark
We won’t come down

HOLD ON
Look outside at the view
the wind and trees are crying
They celebrate in the air
They whisper that I’m lying
Look outside it’s so strange
They seem to watch me hiding
I like to tell myself
At least I know I’m trying

You tell me to hold on
you tell me it won’t be long
Can’t you see we’ve made it this far
Try to put me at ease
We’ll do things a different way
We can go any place
You tell me to hold on

I wake up in the night
Your breath rings like a heartbeat
Afraid to sleep or I’ll find
What’s waiting for me in my dreams
I sneak out onto the grass
See what the wind has scattered
The stars look down from the sky
I wrestle with their power

You tell me to hold on
you tell me it won’t be long
Can’t you see we’ve made it this far
Try to put me at ease
We’ll do things a different way
We can go any place
You tell me to hold on

I really want to
But it makes me nervous

FLIGHT
Steel grey wires laid out across the sky
They draw my eye
Away from my tarred feet
You and I wrapped in eternity
On this empty stretch of beach
In silence in wonder

Now and then
A symphony
Plays for us
I see clearly
Gulls on the morning tide
I watch them all take flight

Heavy night
Gathering up my dreams
Pulling me down this stream
Calling me under
Our love is like
When we were seventeen
When we were almost free
What have we done to each other

Now and then
A symphony
Plays for us
I see clearly
Gulls on the morning tide
I watch them all take flight

VAMPIRE
We walked a long time
Through the wasteland
On the dark earth
On the black sand
When we let go
We let go, we gave into desire
Under the red sky
I hear the wind blow
and the birds cry
It’s me they cry for
When I die I’ll give you my empire
In this shelter
we see for ages
We’re the hunters
We are related
Because tonight
We’re dancing on the fire
Kissing the vampire

Gentle
Your face is
Exotic
In places
Our minds go
Still we ride
Pushing even higher
I know it is burning
A hundred years go
We’re still searching
Because tonight
We’re dancing on the fire
Kissing the vampire

REBEL
Armed and ready
I’ve been loading up my gun
Generations we are many
Riding under the sun
I’ve tasted something
I’ve already crossed that line
You see that dawn is breaking
Oh baby it’s a beautiful sign

Who knows when or how I’ll go
A rebel girl in rebel clothes
If this land should claim my bones
You can find me where the storm blows

The earth and sky
They open up so wide
They hear my battle cry
They hold me till I die
No one can keep me down
No one can hush the sound
No one can close these eyes
Till I am in the ground

I’ve come up this mountain
No where up here to hide
And still I’m screaming out
I’m dancing with the other side
Running in the distance
Horses wild and free
In me there is a longing
That’s how I want to be

Who knows when or how I’ll go
A rebel girl in rebel clothes
If this land should claim my bones
You can find me where the storm blows

The earth and sky
They open up so wide
They hear my battle cry
They hold me till I die
No one can keep me down
No one can hush the sound
No one can close these eyes
Till I am in the ground

COLLIDE
With his love to guide me
I will be untidy
I will sleep all day long
Then in the night come undone
Yes we are more than just friends
We are in love till the end

Oh we are the only ones alive
Us and the world collide

I have most of what I need
I drive around with bare feet
I roll the windows way don
yes, I sing out loud through this town
Oh this city she loves me
All of her sunshine is free
And when I die I’ll lay down
yes, from me the weeds will grow out

Oh we are the only ones alive
Us and the world collide

HOW WILL WE EVER KNOW
Do you remember how
He used to move
Across the floor
Oh it keeps me up at night
In the cold hours,
I write it all down for you
It’s been a while since he made
His presence known
But I remember everything
Deep inside me nothing grows

I waited in the cold
In the sunrise
To receive him
Like a clean glove sliding over me
Wanting me to lead
To let go
To believe it
Loneliness arm wrestles me

I travelled out there
No rivers wild
No branches blew
I once made a signal fire
burning bright and tall for you
My love
The time has come
to let it go
Deep in sleep I make a vow
Off the edge I throw them down

I waited in the cold
In the sunrise
To receive him
Like a clean glove sliding over me
Wanting me to lead
To let go
To believe it
Loneliness arm wrestles me
Loneliness arm wrestles me

How will ever know
How will we ever know

LOW
Written by Juliette Commagere (Half-Mexican Music, ASCAP)
Juliette Commagere vocals, piano, synths

After running through the wild
We walked down to the harbor
IN the headlights
In the moonlight
In the sound
Of dreams I somehow could remember

Every time I think about her
It all comes tumbling out
Like unbridled laughter

Then the world gets dark
Like hands upon my heart
Breaking me open
And all I see
Is night coming down
I want it to fall
And wreck me

You for me love
You shine a light
Pale in the dawn
A feathery extraordinary sight
All my life with you in my arms
Lost in some rendition
Of how it should have gone

Then the world gets dark
I tilt my head toward the stars forever hoping
It’s all I need
Waves crashing down
I can hear them call
I wish they’d forget me

Low
Low
Low

Out here tonight
I can feel it come
I know there’s something out
there pushing me along
There are places in my heart
forever broken
and suddenly
Is love coming down
With arms reaching out
To collect me

HUMAN
Now I realize in this dawn
the shines down on me
I’m hypnotized in and alone
A lonely cold machine
Oh if I could only breathe
But deep inside
My lungs are icy stones

I close my eyes
I live the illusion
One day it should all end
Then no more confusion
Oh to be alive
So tragic to love
Just to feel for a moment
The weight of being Human

How to reach you without a voice
I come from the cold
The terrified
programmed to roam
I wander the unknown
With steel instead of bones
But I’d sacrifice this endless life to know

I close my eyes
I live the illusion
One day it should all end
Then no more confusion
Oh to be alive
So tragic to love
Just to feel for a moment
The weight of being Human

WHAT WE GET
It’s been a long time
Since I’ve been on my own
When did we decide
To be locked here, my love
I really try you know
It is hard to find the words to these lines
What we get, what we get
and what we give up

Come with me outside
Let’s go find the cold
I want to feel alive
Instead of locked here, my love
Now I stay indoors
There’s a garden not far from where we lie
What we get, what we get
And what we give up